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Being A Misanthropic Geek Is Ace

There’s not one thing about myself physically, mentally or personality wise I’d change if I could, I enjoy, with great fondness being me, perhaps everyone loves being the way they are, I can’t be certain of that for sure, but it should be a truism.

We humans are a strange animal, certainly the strangest that’s ever walked the Earth, at least in this third (?) age of humans, it’s a shame people are so strange, I imagine a far better human World if people were slightly more logical, intelligent and sane, but yearning for a World that will never exist, not during my lifetime at least, is pointless, it’s akin to my yearning to live the remainder of my life in the confines of January the first 1980 to December the thirty first 1989, it’s never going to happen. But then lots of things, I wish for, won’t happen, disappointingly so, it’s another shame that during our lives we experience disappointment, but that’s just the way it is, I guess we shouldn’t aim, or dream, so high, but then without higher goals, big thoughts, huge ideas, I imagine life would be rather dull, it’s a life I wouldn’t be capable of living, a life devoid of independent, original thought.

I furiously love my anti human attitude, I’m a total misanthrope, down with people, the well known philosopher Arthur Schopenhauer once wrote, "human existence must be a kind of error." I don’t concur with his statement, an error means there was a hand guiding human creation, and there wasn’t, no God, or Gods, behind our existence, just plain old physical interactions between chemical compositions that resulted in the miracle, or freakiness, of life. 

Being a total non believer in the supernatural is one of my favourite traits, I love being an Atheist and contradicting people’s insane believes in Gods, demons, ghosts and aliens, I could talk and talk and talk for hours explaining to people that we the masses are a controlled sheep like creature, every aspect of our lives carefully managed by puppeteers, men and women of wealth and power who decide how we behave, what we think, how we live our lives, it’s true, and the evidence is there for anyone who can read, and understand, the history of the human race. Obviously one of the major (?) things these puppeteers created to control the masses is supernatural belief, it wasn’t the idiot masses long ago who created Yahweh, Adam and Eve, Abraham, Moses or Jesus, it was well educated, intelligent wealthy people, who were family members of the royal bloodlines, the religious leaders of the times were connected in some way to royal bloodlines, all religions were created to dominate, dictate to the idiot masses, and the differences between various religions, Judaism, Christianity and Islam has led to many wars, the idiot masses wasting their lives mired in anger and hate, and the puppeteers, aware of the truth that there are no Gods, have been laughing their heads off at how easy it is to influence the idiot masses, and this control via religion still continues today, I find it completely bonkers that other people cannot see that religions were created by the people who rule and that not one religion as any basis in fact, but then most people don’t read, have no interest in achieving a level of understanding, no matter how small, some say, ‘ignorance is bliss,’ but I don’t accept that, being aware of the environment you live in, have an understanding, even if it’s still limited, of the World around you, possessing knowledge, if only a little, being capable of empathy, of love, of self respect, of honour, that’s akin to bliss, ignorance just leads to idiocy, anger and hate.

Ignorant people are the idiots who attend English Defence League rallies, are prepared to vote for the British National Party, ignorant folk are violent, hate other people for being of African descent (although all of humanity obviously is) being from India (even though ignorant folk consider such people to be Paki’s, which would mean they’re from Pakistan not India, sigh) ignorant folk hate people for being German or French, Welsh or Scottish, the hatreds of ignorant folk seem never ending and all of their hate is controlled by the puppeteers, especially here in England a nation where people are easily influenced by the national gutter press, who will win the next general election? Let The Sun newspaper and therefore Rupert Murdoch decide, a man who isn’t English nor even lives in England, but hey oh, better than having thoughts of your own isn’t it?

I guess my misanthropy doesn’t extend to encompass the entire human race, just stupid people, of which there is so many, there’s more stupid people in the World than there are intelligent, especially here in England, boy, what a stupid collection of ignoramuses. I have a new insult that I am using to express my disdain at a collective of people, what is that insult, check this out; you England football squad, the ultimate insult, in my opinion, I dislike profanity, and try not to use it myself, it’s the language of the ignorant masses, and I don’t aspire to be ignorant, so now when I see a group of people who are quite frankly abhorrent to me I think, what an England football squad. I enjoy using insults no one else uses, for years I have used frak, frakking, frak you, not because of the influence of the television show Battlestar Galactica but because of the influence of the comic book creator Keith Giffen in his work on Lobo. This influence leads me into explaining another mode of control, the puppeteers have given us entertainment, most of us fail to entertain ourselves so we are slaves to those who provide entertainment for us via television companies, the music industry, the movie industry, and for the minority who enjoy reading, via book and comic book companies, obviously these days younger folk find entertainment via X Boxes and Playstations, or smart phones, but all that entertainment is controlled, entertainment only exists to placate the idiot masses, to prevent mass scale social upheaval, I guess when you think about it we perhaps need that control without it there’d be more rape and murder. Maybe.

Though I enjoy my misanthropic traits it’s the geeky aspect of my personality I love the most. Being able to spend a lazy day just reading comic books is for me a perfect day. At one time I did find myself embracing the English compulsion of spending far too much time, and money, inside dirty public houses, fortunately those days are long ago and I barely remember them, it’s like it happened to someone else, these days I avoid such dirty establishments most of the time and happily like to spend what free time I have alone, sometimes reading, but mostly watching DVDs/Blu-Rays.

Now I am aware that entertainment is just a form of control, a distraction, but being a member of the idiot masses, which I surely am, I embrace with great happiness television boxsets, handfuls of DVDs, classic movies, I revel in piles of comic books, receiving paper cuts in areas better not spoken of in polite circles, though I can through my misanthropic tendencies condemn the idiotic masses for their ignorance and idiocy, I am well aware that I am almost the same, emphasis on almost.

As a geek I could be an ignoramus, and also an idiot, but I choose not to be, though like a sheep I do choose to be led to slaughter by my love for comic books and movies, and what a way to go, death through being saturated with awesome comic book stories and movie plots, it’s the way I want to go, if I can’t be eaten alive by a Great White shark that is.

Being a geek makes me very proud, and my geek community is pretty Goddamn fantastic, though at times geeks can be a little exuberant and illogical when it comes to the stuff they love, but I doubt a geek ever started a war, and certainly no wars, have yet, been fought over what’s better Star Trek or Star Wars? If such a war did break out between various sections of the geek community it would be settled online via the World of Warcraft or some other type of online game, no one would be physically hurt, we geeks being renowned for our lack of physical prowess in the manly martial arts. Besides there’s a well known Universal Law, geek shall never kill geek, we geeks are peaceful folk, we are kinda special, yes in that way.

I know for certain I have special needs, I can just about manage to operate competently in this World, but only just, and that’s only on my own, my special needs prevents my relationships with members of the opposite sex, in that respect I am incompetent, my geekiness prevents me from establishing any sort of romantic ties, not all geeks are like me, some, perhaps a rare few, known as lucky sods, or freaks, within the geek community can have relations with members of the opposite sex. I personally only know two women, one’s my mother the other my youngest sister, I do have another sister but of her I know nothing. The only time I speak to members of the opposite sex, other than my mother and sister, is when I’m being served in a public house, eatery, cinema or shop, the rest of the time these strange humans are a mystery to me, one I’ll never solve. I like not knowing members of the opposite sex, it’s probably not healthy, but I’m the kind who believes that you can look, but don’t touch, and I certainly don’t plan on touching, I refuse to get arrested, again.

That’s perhaps the oddest thing about being a geek, females dislike us, which isn’t a failing on the part of geeks, or women, it’s just this strange phenomenon, that seems true, at least in my experience, I have never gotten along with women, I never will. My plan, eventually, is to invest in one of those Real Dolls, it’s close to being the real thing, at least I think it is, only better, I can still enjoy comic books and ace movies, avoid having to do boring stuff, you know the type of stuff, shopping, parties, family visits, babysitting, all the stuff that prevents a geek from being a geek, in fact now I think about it why invest in a Real Doll? What’s wrong with one’s own imagination? The Internet? Evolved appendages? Wahey, my saved funds for my Real Doll can be now used for something more worthwhile, hmm, this post, this morning, has been well worth the amount of time I have wasted on it, it’s awoken my thought processes to a different way of thinking, for the time being at least.

Huzzah, my geeky misanthropic brain.

 

AN ATHEIST IS I

What does being an Atheist mean? It’s not the least bit the same as having a religious belief, not for me, being an Atheist is, in my opinion, accepting reality and just living from day to day, the only philosophy being life just IS, naturally being an Atheist, which I proudly am, is pretty much full of joy and happiness, another philosophy I can choose to accept has an Atheist is, ‘be excellent to each other!’ Being an Atheist kind of means you can be who you want when you want and not restricted by silly, outdated, belief systems, down with religion, and religious folk, boy you guys, and girls, suck ASS! 

But seriously, for a moment at least, I was reading this; http://www.guardian.co.uk/commentisfree/2012/mar/09/life-without-god-bleak-atheism that made me consider being an Atheist, for me there’s no other choice in the World, it’s the only concept, belief system, philosophy that makes sense, in this reality at least. My own Atheism began when I was a young ‘un, about six years old, I’d recently discovered there was no such thing as Father X Mas, the tooth fairy was a lie and the Easter Bunny a silly idea, due to these sudden, life changing, reveals I also expanded this lack of truth in myths by abandoning a belief in a God, there no longer being a Jesus, it wasn’t hard to abandon God or Jesus due to my ability to read I had discovered new Gods far more interesting than Jesus, who were/are those Gods? They were/are Superman, Batman, Wonder Woman, Green Lantern, The Flash, Aquaman, The Elongated Man, Black Canary, Green Arrow, Zatanna, Supergirl, The Phantom Stranger, thank the stars I discovered comic books, later I expanded my interest into another comic book Universe and discovered Spider-Man, The Mighty Thor (an actual real God) Captain America, The Hulk, The Fantastic Four, The Wasp, The Vision, The Scarlet Witch, Quicksilver, Hawkeye, Hercules (another actual God, well Demi-God) Yellowjacket, Captain Mar-Vell, Adam Warlock, Doctor Strange, the stories, adventures, mishaps these new Gods found themselves involved in were far more interesting, and colourful, than the stories, adventures of other fictional Gods, Yahweh and Jesus for example. By embracing comic books, and abandoning organised religions, my morals, ideals, behaviour, attitude was influenced by the ideals of my new Gods, ‘TRUTH, JUSTICE AND THE AMERICAN WAY’ being a philosophy all children everywhere can live by, healthily so. My fellow Atheists seem to struggle in the real World, the news article is an example of this, there’s no reason for an Atheist to become embroiled in discussions, or arguments, of morals or religion, I kind of figure being an Atheist means such discussions, arguments, are redundant, a complete waste of time, there’s no reason to try and prove the non existence of Jesus, he doesn’t, never did exist, end of, however if people choose to believe such ideas that’s their business, and of no concern to anyone else, especially not an Atheist like me. 

Being an Atheist means, to me, that no one, not a single person, can push upon me any idea or belief, that I am free to do and say whatever I choose without being constrained by the words in a book, not that the freedom I enjoy means I have to be immoral, or bring harm to others, if we allow morality to be dictated by religious folk then the World really as no hope, religious folk being constantly embroiled in terrible crimes of a sexual or violent nature, particularly the strange ideas religious folk have about women, religious folk tend to believe women are a sub human not allowed the same rights as men, Atheists have no such silly notions, from an Atheists point of view I can accept all people, everywhere, have the same rights as me, are indeed equal to me.

As an Atheist I have no interest in religions, or any doctrine or belief, such dogmatic thought seems somehow backward, you know retarded, whether that’s Judaism, Christianity or Islam, or being a Conservative or a Liberal, whether that’s being a racist, sexist or homophobe, or being a supporter of a football club, none of those things that seem to drive a Hell of a lot of people drive me, such drives strike me as being a huge waste of time and effort, and seem based upon disliking or hating other people opposed to your ideas or beliefs, Atheism is, to me, the MEH of human life, as an Atheist the World is merely the way it is without purpose, people are, mostly, shit, there are no big answers, nor questions to be asked, life just IS. 

I have, for a while, enjoyed this Carl Sagan quote; ‘Who are we? We find that we live on an insignificant planet of a humdrum star lost in a galaxy tucked away in some forgotten corner of a universe in which there are far more galaxies than people.’

And no matter what anyone else says, thinks or believes the above Carl Sagan quote sums us all up, every human that is, was or will be.

So abandon your dogma, be it religious, scientific or mere stupidity or sport related and face facts there’s no reality behind any dogmatic belief except for the reality we create inside our own tiny monkey minds.

 

LIFE IS…

… a chore. My life is. Last year I spent the majority of unemployed and it was glorious, except for the lack of money, I had enough time, mostly, to pursue all my goals. I published my first book, Life Of An Idiot, I wrote and had rejected, by the BBC, a TV script, I started and finished successfully my first I.T. course, which sets me up for my second, and becoming Microsoft Certified, I entered the (Inter)National Novel Writing Competition, and wrote more than fifty thousand words of my second book, I managed to watch in a calendar year four hundred movies, a feat I am proud of, and I also had time, being an unemployed bum, for all the good stuff, the geeky cool stuff, watching ace (American) TV shows, reading tons of comic books, socialising with friends, it was an ace year. This year, 2012, I had one goal, find gainful employment, which I did in the murmuring of the year, therefore I needed more goals, I had already decided to become Microsoft Certified in I.T. my course begins later in the year, August, and I had already decided to finish writing and editing my second book, but me being me I have gone too far, once again, too ambitious, I have pledged, to myself, that I will write two TV scripts in April, for the (Inter)National Script Writing Competition, I have two ideas in mind, good ones, well I think so, but I know nothing. I have also pledged, again only to myself, to write and illustrate before the end of this year a comic book series, it’s being written and illustrated slowly at the moment, my plan is to set up an online site and publish the installments of the comic book via the site, with commentary and criticism of both my poor writing and illustration, but life seems so much like a chore now, and I haven’t even started my Web Design Course yet, sigh!

Now with earning a wage I just don’t seem to have any time, cool geeky stuff is being neglected, or being crammed into a limited amount of hours, it took me four days to read last week’s comic books, I managed to watch the latest episode of The Walking Dead earlier, but I have been watching everything else on a Friday afternoon and Saturday morning, but some shows I’m behind on already, sigh! I have not yet managed to plough through all the books I have to read, sure I have read a lot this year so far but there’s so much more, it seems like an impossible task, I’m currently reading the book about Alex Toth, and boy is it good, though I only manage a chapter every night, added to this is the mountain of movies that are happily accumulating, I don’t have time to watch them, I really don’t, and then there’s my decision, on my fortieth birthday, to declare myself a Magickian and practice the occult arts, that’s going well, but again I can’t devote enough of my time to this pursuit, I’ll have more time when the book is finished and the TV scripts written, I am not replacing these finished goals with other goals, I want my life to be simple, easy and pleasant, not a chore.

I despair at real people, you know the ones, the normal folk, people who juggle a job, with family (children) a husband/wife/girlfriend/boyfriend, regular social events, holidays, mortgages and everything else I find alien, how do the norms cope? How do they manage? Why aren’t more people (norms) flipping out and wasting each other? It would make sense, gratuitous violence meted out by the norms on other norms, I’d find it perfectly reasonable, I couldn’t have that kind of life, now that really would be a chore, I remember, only vaguely, people from my now distant (or so it seems) past, folk I considered normal, they had relationships, children, mortgages, holidays abroad, motor vehicles, huge social events, dramas of an Eastenders nature, they were alien to me, I never understood any of them, mostly I just nodded and grinned, or frowned depending on their own expression, mostly I frowned for their words struck me as being of a tragic dramatic flavour, I don’t know people like them anymore, I don’t know them anymore, odd isn’t it how a life can change? How a person can suddenly no longer know people he, or she, knew for years, saw nearly every day. So many people I once knew are now vague faces in memory, their exploits fantastical, unbelievable, sometimes I think I imagined it all, especially the drunken nights out and about, friends long ago, now gone, forever, I sometimes hear friends I stay in touch with mention the odd person from my past every now and again, but it doesn’t really register, I feel like asking, ‘they really exist? Live? Breathe? Experience life?’ But I don’t, I figure that it doesn’t matter, I figure everyone leaves people behind as they move through time, and I figure most people are like me with terrible memories and these folk they have abandoned become forgotten, cease to be, I regularly discover someone staring at me as I wander through my home town, I’m never sure if it’s a face from my past or someone merely staring crazily at me, I tend to walk staring at my feet, with music numbing my audio receptacles from the noises around me, it serves me well, I don’t want to bump into faces from the past, or present, I’m happy being ignorant of the World around me, my mind is normally concerned with more interesting concepts, even when I’m wandering around and around a supermarket hopelessly lost, I’m thinking about Magick, or the nature of the Universe, or whether Peter Bishop will ever find his way home, or is he already home?

In one of my previous places of employ my main task was to press a button, the enter button on a keyboard, at times I wished it was the buttons of a keyboard inside an underground bunker on a mysterious island, but it wasn’t, unfortunately. I always had too much time on my hands way back when, but did nothing with it, I was never has busy as I am now, in retrospect it seems like such a waste of my time, I didn’t write or illustrate anything, in my spare time I watched DVDs mostly and that was about that, other than the occasional session of drunkenness, I should have made more of my spare time, had more motivation, more goals in mind, but I didn’t, such a shame. I think.

At least I don’t waste my spare time these days, in fact there’s not enough hours in a day to pursue my interests, even when I was an unemployed bum there wasn’t.

Tomorrow is Valentine’s Day, I don’t know why people bother, it’s a con, a marketing scam, it’s the silliest of celebrations, in my opinion, though I’d find it more interesting if it reverted to it’s origins, werewolves, human sacrifice and cannibalism, isn’t it odd how modern day festivals are really ancient pagan festivals and far more boring than the original? It's another example though, festivals, of the impact Magick has upon our lives, all our festivals are Magickal, everything from X Mas to Valentine's Day, you see how important Magick has been? Continues to be?

 

OCCULT MUSINGS Part 10

DRAGON LINES

Mentioned by Tom O Bedlam in The Invisibles, are more commonly known as Ley Lines. Apparently, whether true or not, ley lines are alignments between various ancient monuments and natural features of the landscape, obviously a link between such things are easily discovered, we humans have a talent for seeing links, or structures, in nature, or space, an example of this is our ability to see faces in nature, Jesus in a puddle, Mohammed in a tomato, or the famous Face on Mars.

Back in the Eighties during my time embracing the brilliance of the weekly British comic book 2000 AD one of my favourite comic book characters was the Celtic warrior Slaine, dragon lines featured regularly within this fiction, being used by various characters too summon power, to use as weapons, to fuel ships, it’s a good read, is Slaine, and I do recommend the comic book to anyone.

For more information about the supposed existence of dragon lines check this link out; http://dragonlines.net/ 

FAERIES

In Promethea, in the Immateria the title character meets faerie type creatures.

Faeries are a mythical being, they have no existence outside of the imagination, at least so I believe. They are generally believed to be human in appearance, but possess magickal powers, in folklore they are often described as being dead or turn out to be some kind of demonic entity. Their physical existence was regarded as fact, back in possibly more primitive times, if that’s a fair description of previous centuries, in fact in 1691 a Reverend Robert Kirk wrote in his manuscript, The Secret Commonwealth of Elves, Fauns and Fairies that these creatures; ‘These Siths or Fairies they call Sleagh Maith or the Good People...are said to be of middle nature between Man and Angel, as were Daemons thought to be of old; of intelligent fluidous Spirits, and light changeable bodies (lyke those called Astral) somewhat of the nature of a condensed cloud, and best seen in twilight. These bodies be so pliable through the sublety of Spirits that agitate them, that they can make them appear or disappear at pleasure.’

I find Wikipedia a good source of information, though sometimes it does pay to research further, just to make sure the information is sound, here’s link to more info on Faeries; http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fairy 

SATAN

Magick has mention of this creature of Hell, this Lord of Evil, but what are his origins?

Satan, in one type of form is mentioned in the Hebrew Bible, is ‘The Satan’ a kind of prosecutor who works directly for God, YHVH (Yahweh) he has no independent duties beyond those given to him by The Lord.

The common interpretation of Satan can be found in The Book of Enoch, which deals with Fallen Angels, also known as Grigorii or Watchers, one of these Watchers was named Satanael, he was a Prince among the Grigorii but was cast out of Heaven for his sins.

In Christian belief, were we receive our understanding of Satan from, the creature is The Devil, once the angel most revered amongst the angelic host, the highest of all angels, until he rebelled against God, for unknown reasons, and was cast out.

In the Islamic faith Satan is Shaitan, or originally Iblis, he was an angel who possessed free will and while all the other Angels were commanded by Allah (God, YHVH, Yahweh) to bow down before Adam, he Iblis chose not to, and for this he was cast out of Heaven, becoming The Adversary.

In the book A Dictionary of Angels it says of Satan that he was; ‘a great angel, chief of the seraphim, head of the order of virtues. While the seraphim were pictured as six winged Satan was shown as twelve winged.’ It later goes on to say; ‘Through a misreading of Isaiah 14:12, he has been identified with Lucifer.’ In time it is believed Satan will be reinstated in Heaven in his pristine and splendour and original rank.

Other names for Satan, according to A Dictionary of Angels, are, Beliel, Azazel and Sammael, though there are other names.

MAGICKAL PRACTICE

I only managed four minutes of meditation this morning, which is pathetic but hopefully at the end of the day a greater duration will be attained. 

 

OCCULT MUSINGS Part 5

DOMINION

In Promethea the fallen angel, Marchosias, mentions that he used to be a Dominion, y’know?

A Dominion is a high ranking angel, they regulate the duties of the lower angels. Now I know what you might be thinking, ‘huh? Angels aren’t real, are they?’ No they’re not, again when dealing with these things we aren’t dealing with real World creatures, like a dog or a cat, angels, like everything in mythology have no historical evidence backing up a belief in their existence, they’re fictions, characters in stories, which makes them no less important, but you have to understand there’s no Heaven out there somewhere in the vastness of the Universe resided over by God/Jesus attended by various ranks of angels, to believe in the existence of such beings lessens the idea of them. No really, to believe in the virgin birth, and angels, and Gods, and space aliens as real as you or me is quite frankly nuts. If you do believe in the existence of anything that doesn’t exist you’re a nutjob, fact, probably a little bit schizophrenic, do you talk to people who aren’t there? Witness events or people that don’t exist, or once did but don’t anymore? Do you believe you were once, in a previous life, King Arthur or Guinevere? Do dead people talk to you? Via a medium? If yes to all, or any of these questions, then you are a crazy person. No? Yes!

With our imaginations anything can be, anyone can believe in anything, doesn’t mean it’s real, religions are exactly the same, belief in anything is just that, a belief, not a fact, not something that’s real. I believe (ahem) the early Christians, for example, knew Jesus wasn’t ever a real person, he’s just part of a story, but when early Christianity got perverted, around the fourth century, people who became Christians later, took the Biblical tales as gospel (ahem) and the early Christians, who knew better, were burnt as heretics. That’s my belief, and it’s more valid than the belief of any Christian who believes Jesus to be a real historical figure.

Ideas exist before anything else, and are much more important than the physical reality. We forget these things nowadays so fixated we are on the Material World we are blind to the Immaterial.

MAKE YOURSELF INVISIBLE

In The Invisibles Tom O Bedlam makes Dane McGowan invisible. But is that possible? Probably not right? But how would you know? If you were walking down the street, or through a busy city centre, and someone was invisible you wouldn’t know, because you wouldn’t be able to see them. Obviously in a comic book anything is possible, that’s why I like them, I’m more concerned with the fantastical than I am the mundane, in life I have a total disinterest in drama, I don’t watch movies, or TV shows, that are concerned with the normal aspects of human existence, I require fantasy, that’s why I’m at my most happy when I’m asleep, real people don’t exist in my dreams. But back to invisibility, type magical invisibility into Google and dozens of sites will claim it’s possible, via visualisation, or chanting, to become invisible, sounds crazy, to me.

SECRET CHIEFS

Aleister Crowley mentions the Secret Chiefs in his book Magick. They are supposedly enlightened individuals that belong to the Great White Brotherhood, their purpose to guide the spiritual development of the human race. They are believed to have supernatural powers and to have, throughout the ages, communicated with certain individuals. This Wikipedia link reveals more; http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Great_White_Brotherhood 

When venturing into this new World of Magick, I am encountering many fantastical ideas, that to my sceptical mind sound crackpot, but again it’s not about the reality of such ideas but the unreality, it doesn’t matter that such things are fiction, the imagination being far more interesting, and important, than the bleak reality. To readily believe in all these amazing fiction would turn a person into a raving, babbling lunatic, wouldn’t it?

 

OCCULT MUSINGS Part 4

THE NEW WORLD ORDER

A popular conspiracy theory revolves around the belief that there’s an elite group of powerful men and women conspiring to rule the World through a Nazi type dictatorship. They are believed to be behind the destabilising the World economy, terrorist groups, invasions of Third World shitholes, and my favourite, the theories of David Icke.

This link here for Wikipedia explains the entire theory/ies much better; http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/New_World_Order_(conspiracy_theory) 

I like to think there is a such a thing as the New World Order and that my nations lovely government, the Conservatives, are firmly embracing this future/now Nazi like dictatorship. Prime Minister David Cameron’s recent criticisms of the police, NHS and education system confirm this fact, especially as David Cameron and others of his ilk don’t send their children to ordinary schools, their children are getting a good education via private schools, David Cameron and his cronies don’t use the NHS they go private, and I’m sure they probably have their own private police force, if a person wearing a hooded top enters their streets at night I’m betting they suddenly disappear, reappearing briefly at the weekend to be hunted down like foxes by David Cameron and people like him, similar to the hunting of the homeless in The Invisibles.

 WALK INS

In Promethea it is explained that the main character is a Walk In, a spirit, or idea, that can possess the body of another person. My favourite examples of Walk Ins in popular culture are via the early Twentieth Century writer H.P. Lovecraft. Though the word/s Walk In aren’t used, however in several tales the protagonist finds themselves taken over by an alien source. In the so called New Age culture the idea persists that Walk Ins endeavour to promote the progression of the human race by offering insight, new methods of society via the possession of key figures, particularly those of a political stance.

ABRAMELIN

I have upon a bookshelf a tome by Abramelin the Mage, an important occult document, according to Aleister Crowley, and one he advises would be students to possess. But who was Abramelin?

Allegedly he was an Egyptain Mage of the fourteenth or fifteenth century. The popularity of his magickal teachings are due to the translation of the book by MacGregor Mathers, apparently though Mathers translation is considered unreliable and contains many errors and omissions, which is unfortunate for me, the student. 

MAGICKAL PRACTICE

So happily my copy of the first issue of The Gnostic arrived today, which features an interview with the writer Alan Moore, the reason behind my declaration of being a Magician now I have turned forty, instead of declaring myself a Muslim, Communist, Anarchist, serial killer, vigilante or heir to Sherlock Holmes, all equally as barmy as declaring myself a Magician, though being a serial killer or vigilante might be more rewarding, in the short term at least.

When Alan Moore decided to become a Magician he consulted his friend Steve Moore, also a comic book writer, I loved back in the good old days Laser Eraser and Pressbutton, ah! Nostalgia. But anyway Steve Moore was already a Gnostic, occultist, magician, and worshipped, kinda, the Greek Moon Goddess Selene, and he told Alan Moore, you have to choose a god, I guess to worship, so I was initially thinking I’ll worship Thor, but then I was thinking about all those ace Thor comics from Marvel and how Thor is also a bore, and a bit whiny and do I really want to be worshipping a whiner? No of course not. So I decided on worshipping Odin, or Woden, the All Father a far more mysterious, dark character and infinitely more interesting than the dullard Thor.

Now some people might be thinking, ‘worshipping a God, that’s bleeding weird,’ and it is, but you have to try and get past the entire Christian literal belief in a God, or Jesus, originally, in proper religions, Gods and Goddesses weren’t necessarily physical beings with a history behind them, like the modern day belief in religion implies, what people have to remember about Gods, and Goddesses, is this they DON’T exist, not in our reality, they’re thought forms, stories, fictions, you could equally as well worship Superman, hold on a moment, that gives me an idea. But back to my point, there never was a historical Jesus, NEVER, he’s a character, originally in a story that passed from person to person verbally. Anyone seeking the historical Jesus might as well, instead, piss into the wind, it’s the same with Moses and Mohammed, these people were never people, they’re fictions. Obviously it’s impossible to educate pork, so some people will continue to believe in the physical, real life, existence of Jesus, but he’s just a story, sigh. Not that his being a story lessens his importance, if anything it should strengthen a persons resolve, follow the positives of the story and live a fulfilled life, unfortunately fundamental Christians, Jews and Muslims give their religions a bad name. Come on who would want to be a Christian? David Cameron claims to be one, does anyone want to be seen to belong to the same club as him? Really? No, exactly. Then there’s all those mad folk in the grand old U.S. of A, you know the ones, the holier than thou Christian assholes that will kill a person for performing abortions screaming, insanely, ‘murderer’ as they chop the doctor, or nurses, head off, not realising that they really aren’t making much of a convincing argument. Or those real crazies that don’t believe in evolution, boy those people are so stupid that someone, really clever, needs to invent a new word to replace stupid to describe them, the words stupid, idiot, retard just don’t seem to explain their idiocy strong enough. Creationism, ha ha ha.

But anyway, yeah, Gods only exist in stories, verbal and written, in our imaginations, it makes them less physically real than say a table but as an idea it makes them incredibly powerful, after all ideas, imagination out live us all, take for example my God, Superman, yes I know I said at the beginning of this piece I was going to worship Odin, but during the writing, as my ideas became bigger, larger than life, I changed my mind, my God Superman, Kal El, is just as valid a God as Jesus, in fact because Superman constantly is reinvented for the times, he’s more valid, certainly more moral, and certainly more modern. Superman has outlived his creators, Jerry Siegel and Joe Shuster, and outlived Christopher Reeve, who I like to think didn’t die he just went home, sigh. It makes more sense, as I pursue my Magickal studies for me to worship Superman, a poster of the S symbol adorns my bedroom wall, my robe is that of Superman, my bed clothes are Superman, my slippers (yes I wear slippers, hey, I am an old man) are Superman related, so are many of my pants, t shirts, hoodies, I drink Green Tea from a Superman mug, I read Superman comic books, I watch Superman movies (on a regular basis) and the animated cartoon series. I love, and now worship, Superman. He is my God, and thus begins, more firmly than before, my Magickal studies, they take on a wider form. See it’s working out, for me, this declaration of being a Magicker. it could work for anyone, it’s certainly very rewarding. Try it and see.

 

ZARATHUSTRA

As I progress through Aleister Crowley’s Magick, many ideas are presented to me the student/reader, early on, still in the introduction, the name Zarathustra, or more popularly Zoroaster, is mentioned, but just who was/is Zarathustra? According to the information I have been able to uncover Zarathustra was a prophet and religious leader born somewhere in Iran in an undetermined time period. It’s possible he was/is merely a mythological person, and therefore fictional, and that the writings attributed to him are really the works of multiple authors, in the same way the Old Testament, and New, and the Koran, are not the writings of a Moses nor a Mohammed, but writings of a variety of authors over a great deal of time. In these modern times Zarathustra’s teachings are perceived to be firmly about the concept of dualism, the eternal battle between good and evil, on one side Ahura Mazda, the force for good, and on the other, Ahriman, the force for evil, though the reality of the matter is Zarathustra belief is far more complex than that, but because of my love for the entire genre of fiction that is concerned with this eternal battle I will embrace the simplicity of such an idea. 

 

SUPERNATURAL AND PARANORMAL

I plan on investigating such evidence that might exist throughout this year of phenomena of a supernatural or paranormal flavour, I will naturally be recording such investigations right here.

My first investigation will be of the ghostly figure of the white woman witnessed in the Vale woods in Mansfield Woodhouse, Nottinghamshire, why this reported ghostly apparition as my first investigation? Due to the fact it’s virtually on my doorstep and I'm very lazy, intending to investigate all the local supernatural and paranormal happenings first, before venturing further afield. 

Each investigation will begin at midnight and involve possible danger, if such supernatural entities such as ghosts, vampires and werewolves do exist some of them have a reputation of being a little bit scary and quite violent.

I readily confess to being sceptical, and because I am a self confessed dick, I have, for many years, been highly sceptical of anyone’s own personal accounts of such experiences, regarding such people in a negative light, often referring to them as idiots, or liars, it’s going to be interesting to see if such occurrences actually do happen, my insulting thoughts, and previous blog posts I will have to apologise for. Unless of course I discover absolutely zero evidence to prove such occurrences, though I suppose my own lack of evidence will not prove that other people’s experiences are indeed fake.

 

MAGICK

So here it is I declare myself a magicker. A wizard. A sorceror. A mage. Though I am merely a student of magick, and do not know where all this may one day lead. My magickal studies have begun with a reading of Aleister Crowley’s book simply titled Magick, and naturally I shall be pursuing the practice of this art via the late, great man’s writings, and obviously the works of other magickers.

One of my other efforts to study magick is through two of my favourite writers of tales of fiction, Alan Moore and Grant Morrison, via their respective works, Promethea and The Invisibles.

First my studying involves Morrison’s The Invisibles. The first piece of dialogue in the comic book series, ‘And so we return to begin again,’ remarkably I discovered that I had intended to write about my thoughts about The Invisibles a while ago, but of course, due to my random nature, I abandoned such study, but this time I am determined to prevent my random nature from intervening and bringing an end to this beginning. 

I think this opening phrase eludes to the fact that we, us silly humans, have probably been here before, have carried out all the events, both huge and small, of our lives previously and are doomed to repeat them again sometime in the future, if indeed time as any meaning. Do I have evidence of this? Of course not, its just intellectual musings. I believe this notion is the theory of Hyperreality, the idea that do we, are we capable, of actually recognising the difference between reality from a simulation of reality, how do we know that this reality is real? We don’t, we can only theorise, based upon our experiences that this is the real World and not a simulation. However if we do exist within an highly advanced computer simulation it would feel very real to us. Conditions of our present culture/s are prime examples of this idea of the Hyperreal, as an example I draw your attention to our obsession with being consumers, the fact that we, well other people, as I find myself almost an anti consumer, but the point I was intending to make is this, consumers are driven to purchase various items based upon the fact the culture one finds oneself living within demands you buy certain products, the two primary examples being the need to constantly be moving into larger more expensive homes, or this clear need to be craving an expensive, and therefore cherished, motor vehicle, these examples are driven by advertisements and by our peers. Owning, and living, in a large property, or driving expensive motor vehicles implies that one is considerably wealthy, which seems to drive a lot of folk, this is merely artificial simulation, joy, a pursuit of happiness into emptiness, material goods do not bring an enhancement of a person’s life. Everyone knows, or should know, happiness, contentment, fulfillment are achieved by other means, health, fitness, hobbies, pursuits, family, friends. Our World could be mere fantasy, or at least a copy of the real World. We wouldn’t know, our introduction into a simulation happening without our knowledge, after all how far does our knowledge extend? Surely we are only aware of things, know things because we are told or read things. If someone chose, early on, to manipulate us how would we know? Religious people are brainwashed, they believe what they hear from their priests, or from the books they read, anything that doesn’t fit in with their belief system, like evolution for example, are disregarded, and in some cases attacked, but these religious people are being manipulated into believing falsely in their religions, their perception of the real World is therefore Hyperreal, so far removed from actual reality as to be almost a simulation. Who would create a simulation on such a huge scale though, fellow humans? Or some kind of alien, or Hyper, intelligence? Of course there’s not much, if any, evidence of reality being a simulation, and of course none of us can prove we have been here once before only to return again and again. It’s an interesting idea though, don’t you think? 

 

IT’S THE MOST WONDERFUL TIME OF THE YEAR

X Mas is merely a time of greed, am I right? Of course I am, not for everyone perhaps, but for most people, it’s the time of year when people can find excuses for eating more food than they would on a normal day. Of imbibing more alcohol than they do in a normal week. It’s also a greedy time for retailers, and consumers, the retailers would like for everyone to spend ridiculous amounts of cash in their shops, whether those people have the money or not, for consumers, many of them, have this crazy obsession with parting with as much cash as possible, whether they have that cash or not. 

X Mas doesn’t have any Christian values in these modern times. It’s not the birth of the Christian God, it has no spiritual connections, not for the majority, and though Christians can complain that X Mas has been hijacked by the evils of consumerism, and it’s true it as, but the Christians stole X Mas from so called Pagan peoples, so they can’t really complain, pot calling the kettle, I for one have no feelings for Christianity, I find it awful drivel. My own opinion.

Not that I would claim to be an atheist, nor an agnostic, I’m just a person who has zero belief in anything of a supernatural flavour. Though that might change, having always, or at least for as long as I can remember, having had an interest in Magick, not stage magic, though that fascinates me also, the Magick I speak of is that made popular by The Golden Dawn (a magickal order active in Great Britain during the late 19th and early 20th Century) and Aleister Crowley (the so called Wickedest Man in the World, this during the time of Stalin and Hitler) though I won't be practcing the ritual Magick of The Golden Dawn, as I’ll be practicing Magick alone, mostly, I will be leaning towards Chaos Magick, which benefits solo practitioners. On several occasions over previous years I have attempted this endeavour, but laziness, or other activities, have prevented my studies, 2012 will be my fortieth year on planet Earth, my 40th birthday occurring next Friday, and my favourite writer Alan Moore declared himself a magician on his fortieth birthday, though I don’t even have a glimmer of his intellect, however this will not deter me from next Friday declaring myself a Mage. So though I don’t hold onto any such spiritual belief, from next Friday I’ll be pursuing a most improbable pursuit. Or is it? I’ll also, because I’ll have to alter my previously sceptical view of life, be studying various supernatural and paranormal ideas to gauge the truth of such things that at the moment I find ridiculous, this will mean investigating, when possible, tales of hauntings and alien visitations, I have already a few locations in mind, of course these investigations will take place at night, due to the fact most supernatural, and paranormal, events occur at night.

Naturally X Mas has a history that tumbles and stumbles way back through the midst of time, and next year if I survive the Mayan apocalypse I’ll be examining the origins of X mas, and presenting it as a blog, my Magickal studies, experiments, will also be shared via this blog, I don’t plan on being biased to a belief, I plan on being very open minded and my posts will be honest, I won’t lie nor will I exaggerate, if I have some out of this World experience I will report such truthfully, if I don’t again I’ll admit to that fact. I don’t think I’ll suddenly, over night, become a true believer, but perhaps my scepticism  will take a kick in the ass.

X Mas Day can be the most wonderful time of the year, but it can also be the worst. I wonder what my X Mas Day will be like? I guess having a positive frame of mind is the best way to approach the day, and to have a bloody good appetite.