There’s not one thing about myself physically, mentally or personality wise I’d change if I could, I enjoy, with great fondness being me, perhaps everyone loves being the way they are, I can’t be certain of that for sure, but it should be a truism.
We humans are a strange animal, certainly the strangest that’s ever walked the Earth, at least in this third (?) age of humans, it’s a shame people are so strange, I imagine a far better human World if people were slightly more logical, intelligent and sane, but yearning for a World that will never exist, not during my lifetime at least, is pointless, it’s akin to my yearning to live the remainder of my life in the confines of January the first 1980 to December the thirty first 1989, it’s never going to happen. But then lots of things, I wish for, won’t happen, disappointingly so, it’s another shame that during our lives we experience disappointment, but that’s just the way it is, I guess we shouldn’t aim, or dream, so high, but then without higher goals, big thoughts, huge ideas, I imagine life would be rather dull, it’s a life I wouldn’t be capable of living, a life devoid of independent, original thought.
I furiously love my anti human attitude, I’m a total misanthrope, down with people, the well known philosopher Arthur Schopenhauer once wrote, "human existence must be a kind of error." I don’t concur with his statement, an error means there was a hand guiding human creation, and there wasn’t, no God, or Gods, behind our existence, just plain old physical interactions between chemical compositions that resulted in the miracle, or freakiness, of life.
Being a total non believer in the supernatural is one of my favourite traits, I love being an Atheist and contradicting people’s insane believes in Gods, demons, ghosts and aliens, I could talk and talk and talk for hours explaining to people that we the masses are a controlled sheep like creature, every aspect of our lives carefully managed by puppeteers, men and women of wealth and power who decide how we behave, what we think, how we live our lives, it’s true, and the evidence is there for anyone who can read, and understand, the history of the human race. Obviously one of the major (?) things these puppeteers created to control the masses is supernatural belief, it wasn’t the idiot masses long ago who created Yahweh, Adam and Eve, Abraham, Moses or Jesus, it was well educated, intelligent wealthy people, who were family members of the royal bloodlines, the religious leaders of the times were connected in some way to royal bloodlines, all religions were created to dominate, dictate to the idiot masses, and the differences between various religions, Judaism, Christianity and Islam has led to many wars, the idiot masses wasting their lives mired in anger and hate, and the puppeteers, aware of the truth that there are no Gods, have been laughing their heads off at how easy it is to influence the idiot masses, and this control via religion still continues today, I find it completely bonkers that other people cannot see that religions were created by the people who rule and that not one religion as any basis in fact, but then most people don’t read, have no interest in achieving a level of understanding, no matter how small, some say, ‘ignorance is bliss,’ but I don’t accept that, being aware of the environment you live in, have an understanding, even if it’s still limited, of the World around you, possessing knowledge, if only a little, being capable of empathy, of love, of self respect, of honour, that’s akin to bliss, ignorance just leads to idiocy, anger and hate.
Ignorant people are the idiots who attend English Defence League rallies, are prepared to vote for the British National Party, ignorant folk are violent, hate other people for being of African descent (although all of humanity obviously is) being from India (even though ignorant folk consider such people to be Paki’s, which would mean they’re from Pakistan not India, sigh) ignorant folk hate people for being German or French, Welsh or Scottish, the hatreds of ignorant folk seem never ending and all of their hate is controlled by the puppeteers, especially here in England a nation where people are easily influenced by the national gutter press, who will win the next general election? Let The Sun newspaper and therefore Rupert Murdoch decide, a man who isn’t English nor even lives in England, but hey oh, better than having thoughts of your own isn’t it?
I guess my misanthropy doesn’t extend to encompass the entire human race, just stupid people, of which there is so many, there’s more stupid people in the World than there are intelligent, especially here in England, boy, what a stupid collection of ignoramuses. I have a new insult that I am using to express my disdain at a collective of people, what is that insult, check this out; you England football squad, the ultimate insult, in my opinion, I dislike profanity, and try not to use it myself, it’s the language of the ignorant masses, and I don’t aspire to be ignorant, so now when I see a group of people who are quite frankly abhorrent to me I think, what an England football squad. I enjoy using insults no one else uses, for years I have used frak, frakking, frak you, not because of the influence of the television show Battlestar Galactica but because of the influence of the comic book creator Keith Giffen in his work on Lobo. This influence leads me into explaining another mode of control, the puppeteers have given us entertainment, most of us fail to entertain ourselves so we are slaves to those who provide entertainment for us via television companies, the music industry, the movie industry, and for the minority who enjoy reading, via book and comic book companies, obviously these days younger folk find entertainment via X Boxes and Playstations, or smart phones, but all that entertainment is controlled, entertainment only exists to placate the idiot masses, to prevent mass scale social upheaval, I guess when you think about it we perhaps need that control without it there’d be more rape and murder. Maybe.
Though I enjoy my misanthropic traits it’s the geeky aspect of my personality I love the most. Being able to spend a lazy day just reading comic books is for me a perfect day. At one time I did find myself embracing the English compulsion of spending far too much time, and money, inside dirty public houses, fortunately those days are long ago and I barely remember them, it’s like it happened to someone else, these days I avoid such dirty establishments most of the time and happily like to spend what free time I have alone, sometimes reading, but mostly watching DVDs/Blu-Rays.
Now I am aware that entertainment is just a form of control, a distraction, but being a member of the idiot masses, which I surely am, I embrace with great happiness television boxsets, handfuls of DVDs, classic movies, I revel in piles of comic books, receiving paper cuts in areas better not spoken of in polite circles, though I can through my misanthropic tendencies condemn the idiotic masses for their ignorance and idiocy, I am well aware that I am almost the same, emphasis on almost.
As a geek I could be an ignoramus, and also an idiot, but I choose not to be, though like a sheep I do choose to be led to slaughter by my love for comic books and movies, and what a way to go, death through being saturated with awesome comic book stories and movie plots, it’s the way I want to go, if I can’t be eaten alive by a Great White shark that is.
Being a geek makes me very proud, and my geek community is pretty Goddamn fantastic, though at times geeks can be a little exuberant and illogical when it comes to the stuff they love, but I doubt a geek ever started a war, and certainly no wars, have yet, been fought over what’s better Star Trek or Star Wars? If such a war did break out between various sections of the geek community it would be settled online via the World of Warcraft or some other type of online game, no one would be physically hurt, we geeks being renowned for our lack of physical prowess in the manly martial arts. Besides there’s a well known Universal Law, geek shall never kill geek, we geeks are peaceful folk, we are kinda special, yes in that way.
I know for certain I have special needs, I can just about manage to operate competently in this World, but only just, and that’s only on my own, my special needs prevents my relationships with members of the opposite sex, in that respect I am incompetent, my geekiness prevents me from establishing any sort of romantic ties, not all geeks are like me, some, perhaps a rare few, known as lucky sods, or freaks, within the geek community can have relations with members of the opposite sex. I personally only know two women, one’s my mother the other my youngest sister, I do have another sister but of her I know nothing. The only time I speak to members of the opposite sex, other than my mother and sister, is when I’m being served in a public house, eatery, cinema or shop, the rest of the time these strange humans are a mystery to me, one I’ll never solve. I like not knowing members of the opposite sex, it’s probably not healthy, but I’m the kind who believes that you can look, but don’t touch, and I certainly don’t plan on touching, I refuse to get arrested, again.
That’s perhaps the oddest thing about being a geek, females dislike us, which isn’t a failing on the part of geeks, or women, it’s just this strange phenomenon, that seems true, at least in my experience, I have never gotten along with women, I never will. My plan, eventually, is to invest in one of those Real Dolls, it’s close to being the real thing, at least I think it is, only better, I can still enjoy comic books and ace movies, avoid having to do boring stuff, you know the type of stuff, shopping, parties, family visits, babysitting, all the stuff that prevents a geek from being a geek, in fact now I think about it why invest in a Real Doll? What’s wrong with one’s own imagination? The Internet? Evolved appendages? Wahey, my saved funds for my Real Doll can be now used for something more worthwhile, hmm, this post, this morning, has been well worth the amount of time I have wasted on it, it’s awoken my thought processes to a different way of thinking, for the time being at least.
Huzzah, my geeky misanthropic brain.
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